Friends

     Today was a day of reflection... I didn't have much to do and my mind just wandered. I thought about how I got to be where I am. The choices I've made, the mistakes I regret. And I think the only thing I really regret is a choice I made in Spring 2012. It cost me my two best friends in college.
     Now I have my high school group of friends that I wouldn't trade for the world and other friends that I've picked up along the way that I treasure. But when I think of college - these two ladies are the best friends I think of.
     I took advantage of them and it cost me their friendships. My other friends always tell me that "Oh well if they were really your friends they would've forgiven you as soon as you apologized" but who knows. I do know that they really were my best friends and I was theirs. Which makes the loss so much worse. There are few things I wouldn't do to have them back. To this day I still can't prevent the stinging-eye syndrom when thinking about that time.
     The only silver lining to that situation was that it brought me so much closer to The Boyfriend and my high school friends. It taught me the importance of forgiveness. Before I could hold a grudge with the best of them. Now I understand that holding a grudge against someone who has apologized and made amends is not worth it. For months I was waiting and praying for forgiveness that never came, probably some of the most miserable months of my life seeing as those two best friends were also my roommates at the time. It made for an awkward living situation.
     I guess my point in blogging this is to remind everyone to forgive. And to never take for granted your friends. I didn't appreciate what I had and once I lost it I tried everything to get it back. Sometimes you don't realize what you have until it's gone. Yes, very original thought that one. BUT I think we all know that it has merit.